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I'm thrilled to be on your substack! I'm so glad I'm not the only one drawn to little lost souls.

There’s some backstory to how I can relate to that. It begins when I got a contract for my first book. At the time, my federal agent husband wanted me to use a pen name to protect us from people who might track us online. I recognized the wisdom of his counsel because I grew up a sheriff's deputy's daughter as was very aware that we could easily be singled out by vengeful criminals because of his patrol car in the driveway. So I agreed to the necessity of a pen name and chose the first one that came to mind.

Let me tell you about Kierstin. When I was young, probably still in elementary school, my dad, then working on patrol, was called to an elementary school to collect a child bruised so severely she was not safe going home. I don't know where DFS was, but he brought her to our house. She was a thin child with brown hair like mine. My sisters and I took care of her for only a few hours, but she made a lasting impression on me. Years later, while standing in my dad's office at the sheriff's office, I said, "Dad, whatever happened to Kierstin?"

His face changed. "Oh, honey, the family moved to Idaho, and her stepfather killed her there."

I chose Kierstin’s name because she mattered to me. It’s a way of keeping her close and never forgetting her. A sweet child who only knew pain. I write about hard topics to satisfy my obsession to rescue victims--like Kierstin. I always cry when I think about her. I hope from her window in heaven she's able to look down and know that someone cares.

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Thank you for sharing this story, Kierstin. I teared up, thinking about this little girl who died. I love that you chose HER name as your pen name!

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